We all have been through those feeling or cravings where enough is not enough. Recent events in my life have impacted me deeply and left no desires to move forward. Like life was stuck and it really sucks.
But when it comes to a point where nothing can be done or hardly anything left to do, you feared and start losing it drastically. Your emotions and intellects do not add up. You became a victim of the black hole spiral of wingeing thoughts, self-destructive and morally very low.
Nothing to ashamed of. It happens to all. One way or other, all may have different in the situation but yet similar results. Down spiral.
Is there any way out or hope left? The answer is Yes. Always. No matter how low you feel and how you think, it does not count. What counts is what you do and how you act and react upon. Either you can surrender completely or you can still gather yourself and do better. Being aware of that allows you to think, is that what you wanted? And the answer is no then you have to change something. Your expectation or your values. I am not saying give up on your dreams but gather your defeats, learn from it and make it sense out of it.
Whether it is a relation or responsibility or just rational thinking.